The Life of a Stutterer

June 02, 2012  |  Posted in: Members' Blog - Stuttering Perspectives   |  By:   |   2 Comments

Stuttering has become a big part of my life, whether I like it or not. It has made me who I am today, and it will determine what I become. I began stuttering when I was about nine years old. At the time, I didn’t know what hit me. All of the sudden what seemed so natural became a constant struggle.

 

The first time I realized I really had a problem was in school. My teacher asked me a question, and the words just didn’t come out. I had some major blocks and of course, the whole class burst out into laughter. I still remember the feeling I had in my gut. From that day on, I began to hide my stutter. I remember on the first day of school when everyone introduced themselves to the teacher I was shaking, so I wrote my name on a big piece of paper and showed it to the teacher. I was so ashamed, but I didn’t want to be laughed at again. There were so many situations in school where I wanted to comment or ask a question but I stayed quiet.

 

My family has never really mentioned anything to me regarding my stuttering. They all know I stutter, but I wonder what they really think. I’m not sure if they have pity on me, or just feel bad for me. No one in my family has ever made fun of my stutter, so I am thankful for that. When I look back at my life, all I can see are missed opportunities. I am trying to come out of the bubble I have set for myself and take chances. A few months ago, I reached a new low. I was very frustrated with my stuttering and I felt like there was nothing out there for me. It was like I was destined to fail because of my stutter. I thought to myself, who would want to hire someone that can’t answer the phone, or have a conversation without having blocks?

 

Soon after, I was speaking to someone regarding my struggles, and they mentioned the National Stuttering Association and the Queens Chapter. I became overwhelmed with emotion. The thought of meeting fellow stutterers was fascinating. I couldn’t wait to hear their stories and struggles. When I left my first meeting, I was overwhelmed with confidence. The people were so nice and special. I really think that people who stutter have special hearts. I feel like my stuttering has shaped me into the person that I am today. Of course, I hate the fact that I stutter but now I am learning to accept it, and I feel much better.

– David L.

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2 Comments for this entry

  • DM MD

    June 4th, 2012 on 10:03 am

    David,

    What a fascinating article. You are so brave.

    • David

      June 4th, 2012 on 4:51 pm

      Thank you very much.









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