The Trouble with Stuttering is…

August 07, 2010  |  Posted in: Members' Blog - Stuttering Perspectives   |  By:   |   0 Comments

The trouble with stuttering is you never know when it’s going to create challenges throughout your day. We seem to play a waiting game every day of not knowing when bumps will happen or when the words will just flow. We all have those days where we become so frustrated with not speaking fluently that we forget the big picture – we have no control over those bumps and blocks.

I was recently elected President of the Student Government of my college for the 2010-2011 school year. I was so excited when I found out that I won because I knew people believed in me. Only after I won did I realize who was truly rooting for me. I know that not everyone accepts my stuttering or understands it and that’s ok. Sometimes in life, we will face those people who make us feel bad about ourselves but remember, everyone has flaws and whether you can see or hear them or not, they are still there, hidden but not unnoticed.

About a month ago I had to make a speech as the President at a Leadership Lunch. I woke up the day of the award ceremony feeling anxious and nervous and we stutterers know what that means-BUMPS, LOTS OF BUMPS! As I approached the podium and took my first breath I knew fluency wasn’t on my side. I stumbled through almost every word-AGAIN! but once again my audience did not fail me-they started cheering my name and clapping for me when I said “ For those of you who do not know, I am a stutter.” Could it be? Everyone applauding ME for something they have never seen before or quite understand? After the ceremony, many students, parents, and faculty members came up to me and congratulated me on my “terrific speech.”

For the first time in a long time I felt like I could have done better-that if I just paused and took a deeper breath I could have spoke fluently. For all of you out there who feel embarrassed or ashamed because you stutter, just remember that there are others out there who experience the same emotions you do every day. I AM ONE OF THEM!

I think about that ceremony almost every day and sometimes I feel sad and discouraged…WHY can’t I talk fluently all of the time? Afterward, I get mad at myself for thinking that I can’t do it but I remember that stuttering is a part of me, just like it is a part of you and nothing and no one can ever change that. WAIT!-There is however one thing you can change- YOUR ATTITUDE. You control the power to accept stuttering and enlighten others who may not know why you are making that funny face or can’t get the word out in time. You can say YES to whatever challenges come your way. No one ever said that life would be easy, they just said it would be worth it. Don’t be afraid to be a Fruitloop in a world of Cheerios. Be Strong and Stutter Beautifully.

– Nina Z.

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